Insignificant but disturbingly honest

Category: Nostalgia (page 1 of 5)

Through the pink shimmering light

If you’ve read some of my posts from the past you probably know that I’m a pretty nostalgic person. Memories are sometimes a bit too dear to me and also painted in colors maybe a bit more vivid than they ought to. Then again, I guess it means that you’ve had a history that you are happy with. It’s bittersweet though, cause it often leaves you with a feeling of emptiness. All those emotions you had back then overwhelm you in an instant. It’s a weird experience. Happiness, sadness, love, pain – all at once. And you almost want to escape to what once was instead of actually living in the present, and making the present as good as possible. In short, it’s a dish best served very occasionally.

With that said, today I stumbled into a video by an old YouTube account that I used to follow back in the day. It’s by a guy called Josh who plays mostly anime music on his piano. And it really took me 6-8 years back. To when I used to watch anime all day and it basically was my only company. What filled me with emotion and also what brought me back from some tough days. I met people through it that helped me develop into the person that I am today. So I have a lot to be thankful for when it comes to that subject.

As for anime I don’t watch it anything these days (apart from Steins;Gate a year or so back) but the memories are all still there. I just have to listen to a few seconds of those tunes and it fills me with lots of emotions. And the way that those songs capture everything from joy to sadness, and the stuff in between… well, I don’t know how they do it. Lots of them are so fucking melancholic as well. Melancholy is another one of those things that’s dangerous, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, I’m just gonna present you with two songs since otherwise I could make an endless list that no one would care about. First it’s a joyful one that used to be one of my favorite endings from Bleach. It’s mostly joyful but has a touch of melancholy in it. The other one is just pure melancholy, and it’s from Suzuka. I instantly feel the pain that the characters went through when that song played in the show. Music is so god damn fascinating in that sense. The first song I unfortunately haven’t found in the version I used to watch so I can’t credit the girl who played it but Kyle is pretty fucking good as well.

I think I might just have to pick up the second season of A Certain Scientific Railgun. Didn’t even know there was one up until like… now. And gosh, I’m so thankful for the family and friends I have now. What would I do without you? I don’t want to go back to feeling as lonely as I once used to do. Thanks for being there and hugs to all of you! <3


Whilst watching Big Hero 6 the other day I was discussing the gender roles with Hannah and how they are portrayed in animated movies these days. Initially there were very few female characters but there were more as the story progressed and in the end I don’t think you could complain about anything really. I’m not one to think about those things, as I never really have done, I seem to be able to get lost in the story and not think too much. But then again, I understand if you’re one of those who do and if things bug you. I also pointed out that I think Studio Ghibli has always been good at this (Princess Mononoke, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Laputa, Spirited Away, and so on) but that Disney has traditionally maybe been more for classic. Not always, but sometimes. And I think this is good because I like the traditional movies as well. With that being said, let me just say:


So, there’s a live action movie coming. Interesting to see how this can hold up against the classic animated movie. I really love all of the old Disney soundtracks. They still do them good from time to time (Frozen for instance) but I guess nostalgia wins me over. Oh all the feelings <3 Which actually ties on to the next thing we were discussing. How animated movies, at least from my perspective, can evoke feelings much better than regular movies. Not saying regular movies can't, just that it happens rarely for me. Animated movies though, with the characters and surroundings being drawn or rendered, you can focus on the story, interaction and all that. You don't have to take into account bad acting for instance. Surely when you think of it there are other aspects that have to fall into place in an animated movie but yeah... I've always had stronger feelings for them anyway. Maybe because with a regular movie you can tell if something is wrong and that holds it back. When it does however succeed at it for sure you can end up having the same feelings. But I'm struggling to come up with those moments (Her and Dear John being the latest) while I have plenty of memories for animes for instance. If those songs don't make you feel then I don't know what does. Gosh, makes me wanna cry every single time. So pretty. Oh how I miss being in love and holding onto that someone~ 😉 Anyway. It's Friday. Have a nice weekend everyone~ PS. You have seen this already, haven’t you? DS.

PPS. The actor doing the voice of the beast in the original movie actually has the mane of the beast. Noticed?!?!



Nintendo nostalgia

I’ve been playing some old games on the emulator lately and thus I was awestruck when I found this video. Sure, it might not be usable but the fact that they actually did it is… well, brilliant, haha.

You ever feel like when you met someone, they fill this hole inside of you, and then when they’re gone… you feel that space painfully vacant?

Hi there, Mr 3 am. I’ve seen you quite often lately. It mustn’t become a habit. But how are you anyhow?


I’m here two tell you about two things today. The first thing I’m going to tell you is that a Raspberry Pi can be the perfect companion if you want to turn your Apple TV into a Plex streaming device. There is no native app for Plex on the ATV so you need some middleware to actually feed the device the streaming data. All you need is a Raspberry Pi and some basic knowledge of Linux. What I did was I got a case for it, a wireless network adapter and a micro USB to power it off another computer. I then installed Raspbian, got the WLAN up and running, installed PlexConnect and configured the Apple TV. Not super easy but not rocket science either. Honestly, running a computer attached to the network that actually does some work and powering it with a simple USB connector – priceless!


The other thing. This is pretty amazing as well. I watched a movie tonight starring Michael Pitt, Brit Marling and Astrid Bergès-Frisbey. It really struck a chord with me. Usually I have a really hard time picking movies. Especially when I’m about to watch one myself. I very seldom find one that is fitting of my current mood. It’s like I’m not mentally prepared for anything. Or I’m just hard to motivate. What do I know. In any case, this movie was truly beautiful and really hard to watch at the same time. Tears were shed as is standard when I watch movies on my own lately. Whenever a motion picture can make you feel something I think that goes to show that it’s well made and something out of the ordinary. At least for you. It mixed some very basic human emotions with an interesting idea regarding life on the bigger picture. It’s probably one of those flicks that goes under most peoples’ radar, but I can thoroughly recommend it. Love the actors as well as the intensity and sincerity.



So yeah. That’s all for me tonight. Oh and yeah. Don’t miss out on the Overkligt kickstarter campaign. The best pod out there right now coupled with P3 Spel.

Love out~

Two songs from the I Origins soundtrack that stayed with me. You ought to listen to these. Pretty~~~

The Dø – Dust It Off
Radiohead – Motion Picture Soundtrack



A lunar storm

Not a particularly good day. No energy, broken promises and end of weekend. I at least managed to help a friend out with his computer. Apart from that, bedridden.



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