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So lucky ♥ T_T

I was just thinking, was this my first week of work after the vacation? But no, it wasn’t. I worked for three weeks before going to Majorca. I was just about to say though that once you work five days a week you start to value your weekend and thus your spare time a whole lot more than when you’re on vacation. It’s insane how quickly these days pass really. Insane.

Made that statement like a thousand times though so nothing new under the sun. Apart from that I’ve had a great weekend. Been having it a bit tough mentally lately. Lots of stuff happening. Lots of thoughts and emotions. Since getting better after last year’s meltdown I’ve mainly breezed through life. It’s been pretty easy. I haven’t really had to try to feel good about myself. And have a good time. It has just happened. Lately that has changed a bit, although not a whole much. But a bit.

The difference now though is that I can see that those are only temporary feelings. And that I don’t have to act on those feelings and let them control me. I can let them be there, and be aware of them, and let them give insight into what’s happening. But I don’t have to let them ruin, for lack of a better word, my day or what not. I also try to turn the situation around. Like for instance if I feel that I’m missing something, I look to what I have instead. And to what all that I have in my life would have been worth, like five years ago.

Only this weekend I’ve hung out with six different groups of people in different occasions. That would have been impossible years ago. I would have been a wreck. Not to mention the fact that I wouldn’t have dared to get to know them. Now I don’t even have to think about that. I only have a good time. It might seem odd to most of you who haven’t faced the same issues but I’m sooooooo happy that it is this way now. So happy that I get to meet all of these peeps and have a good time. It’s not at all something one should take for granted, quite the opposite.

That said, things can always get better and I’m hoping that the future has some good things in store for me 🙂 It’s looking bright!

Hugs and night!

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Packed and ready

What a nice day! I hung out with Stina, L&H+kids and my family. We went shopping, walked the dog, had lunch down by the lake and just had a good time basically. I found some neat things that I wanted for the trip and also bought this really cute backpack for Molly.

These past hours have been spent watching Cap America Civil War and packing for the trip. God I hate packing. Such a chore. It’s not really hard it’s just boring. Something you need to get done. You have it all done in your head but you have to actually do it too. Me, lazy?! Naaaaaaw.

Not much else to say. I don’t like the feeling of not bringing enough entertainment. But I figure I can always buy a book or download an audio book if I run out. Apart from that I’m always so silly. I always look at what I leave behind. Missing the friends, colleagues, my cats and so on. Instead of looking forward to what’s to come. But I think that’ll change as soon as we’re on the plane. 

Tomorrow I’m going with Lennart, Henriette and the kids to Liseberg. They’re then driving me to the airport. We’re taking off around 6pm I think and will be in Alcudia four hours later. 

So yeah. I better go sleep now. Getting up in five hours or so. Pushing the hours as usual.

You sleep tight, alright? I’ll be missing you. But see you in a week! *hugs*


Continued efforts, further results

Another day at the office. Literally, and figuratively. Today was a fun day and I’m glad I was able to break free from yesterday’s gloomy grip on me. And even though today’s bike ride ended up being cold and windy I’m trying to stay positive going into fall. Work is going well and we’re continuing to laugh and help each other out. My sessions with my therapist is also positive. She thinks I’m doing very well which is always good to hear considering that you sometimes might doubt that. But I do feel that I’ve become stronger. I don’t give in as easily. I fight and I make what might look bad into something good, and if not good at least something less bad. Proud of myself for that.

But I’m also happy that I have my precious friends and family. Whatever would I do without you? <3

So nothing out of the ordinary today. Just wanted to post a couple of words letting you know that I’m not going into a negativa spiral again 😉

T minus one week

I’ve had some lovely days lately starting with our conference on Thursday and ending with yesterday’s visit to Sonja and Lars. The annual conference was a real good one. A perfect mix of discussions, team building, food and fun. I had more energy this year which meant being able to have more fun in the evening. Last year I remember being a bit sick, and even the year before that, so I had to go to bed early. This year not so much, which cost me a bit the day after. He ha hi ho. But apart from that I must say it was great! I think we all had a good time given by the amount of laughs and that’s probably what everyone needed.

Yesterday I took part in the event called Åsunden runt. It’s a charity event here in town where you can walk, run or bike several different distances/routes along our local lake. Naturally I took part in the bike route around the lake, same thing as last year. The entrance fee goes to cancer research which I think is a great thing. We were blessed with good weather this year too and it was good fun! Finally got the chance to meet a guy that I’ve been talking to online quite a lot as well. Fun fun!

After that I went for a visit to Sonja and Lars lake house. It’s been a long time since I last saw them and the kids so I’d been looking forward to coming there. Our colleague and a newfound friend of mine, Elin, also dropped by. Really like her and I hope I’ll be able to hang out with her more in the future. Lots of fun with the kids and talking till quite late. So glad I’ve gotten to know these guys. Precious people <3 As for today I was exhausted and kind of anxious for some reason so I decided to cancel my plans for the day and just rest up and do as little as possible. I slept like a lot (read the entire morning) and didn't get a whole lot done but that was probably what was needed. I'm cutting down on my medicine now so maybe it's only natural after three intensive days to feel a bit tired. Now I'm gonna head to bed and listen to some podcasts. P3 Spel is finally back after their summer hiatus. Yay! Sleep tight and sweet dreams to all of you!


















Tomorrow is conference day

Just did that last bit of packing for tomorrow’s conference. It’s of course too late as usual but I will at least be getting 5.5 hours of sleep. Maybe less, since I noticed Nördigt has released their first podcast episode after the summer break. Yeeeeeeha!

Today was a good day. Productive at work, lots of laughter and a super good bike workout in the evening. Very nice! Halt and Catch Fire has started as well. Season 3 that is. So far I haven’t gotten into the vibe but I’m sure it’ll pick up the pace. Two episodes in they are just setting up the pieces.

Uhm yeah. What else. Well, I fully plan on getting back to the Cykelvasan race. I wanna share what it was like and all that stuff. Just haven’t had the time to sit down and write about it all. This weekend maybe? We’ll see. These remaining days of the week will be quite pleasing I think. Weeee~~~






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