I’m so happy that there is a weekend left before I have to start working. Why? Well because I’m literally exhausted. For some reason. No idea why. Today has been a slow day with sleeping in, games, pizza, leftover tiramisu from a friend and watching of the new Star Wars movie. Unfortunately I’ve been a bit tense all day and almost half the movie was spent on focusing on my breathing as I ended up with rushing heart rate and sweating. Eventually it calmed down and that was such a huge relief as I really, really didn’t want to leave the theater again.
Apart from that I’ve come down with a heavy heart yet again but what do you do. Trying to force it away and realize that in that particular area I probably will never be happy again. But at least I got to experience it once, if only for a short period of time. Screw feelings.