If you’ve read some of my posts from the past you probably know that I’m a pretty nostalgic person. Memories are sometimes a bit too dear to me and also painted in colors maybe a bit more vivid than they ought to. Then again, I guess it means that you’ve had a history that you are happy with. It’s bittersweet though, cause it often leaves you with a feeling of emptiness. All those emotions you had back then overwhelm you in an instant. It’s a weird experience. Happiness, sadness, love, pain – all at once. And you almost want to escape to what once was instead of actually living in the present, and making the present as good as possible. In short, it’s a dish best served very occasionally.

With that said, today I stumbled into a video by an old YouTube account that I used to follow back in the day. It’s by a guy called Josh who plays mostly anime music on his piano. And it really took me 6-8 years back. To when I used to watch anime all day and it basically was my only company. What filled me with emotion and also what brought me back from some tough days. I met people through it that helped me develop into the person that I am today. So I have a lot to be thankful for when it comes to that subject.

As for anime I don’t watch it anything these days (apart from Steins;Gate a year or so back) but the memories are all still there. I just have to listen to a few seconds of those tunes and it fills me with lots of emotions. And the way that those songs capture everything from joy to sadness, and the stuff in between… well, I don’t know how they do it. Lots of them are so fucking melancholic as well. Melancholy is another one of those things that’s dangerous, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, I’m just gonna present you with two songs since otherwise I could make an endless list that no one would care about. First it’s a joyful one that used to be one of my favorite endings from Bleach. It’s mostly joyful but has a touch of melancholy in it. The other one is just pure melancholy, and it’s from Suzuka. I instantly feel the pain that the characters went through when that song played in the show. Music is so god damn fascinating in that sense. The first song I unfortunately haven’t found in the version I used to watch so I can’t credit the girl who played it but Kyle is pretty fucking good as well.

I think I might just have to pick up the second season of A Certain Scientific Railgun. Didn’t even know there was one up until like… now. And gosh, I’m so thankful for the family and friends I have now. What would I do without you? I don’t want to go back to feeling as lonely as I once used to do. Thanks for being there and hugs to all of you! <3