Today I’m so sorry. For my parents. For my beloved sister. I’m sorry I couldn’t be happy. I’m sorry that despite all your goodness and effort I wasn’t able to smile. Today I guess was supposed to be my day. A good day. I hate those days. Especially now. I just can’t seem to pull through. Sorry. From the bottom of my heart. But know this, if it weren’t for you, I would have been crying for the whole day. Damn, I’ve never cried this much in my entire life but it feels like a relief. So maybe it was a good day after all…


My tired heart is beating so slow. Our hearts sing less, than we wanted. We wanted. Our hearts sing ’cause we do not know, we do not know. To light the night, to help us grow, to help us grow. It is not said, I always know. In this happy little house.

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Joshua Radin – Paperweight
Amanda Seyfried – Little House

Dear John. I finally managed to muster up the courage to watch this movie. And yeah… it completely broke me down. Just like I figured it would. God, what do you have in store for me?