It’s funny with life. Often the most important and crucial parts of life happen when you least expect it. Or come to you when you least expect it. And they’re so simple really, and often “free”. For instance friends. The real good ones you don’t really make an effort to befriend. It happens. You’re getting along so well, all of a sudden you’re BFFs. Same with work. Sure, you might have made a real effort getting there, but usually it all happens so fast. Rewind a year and you probably wouldn’t think you’d be where you are today. Of course there are exceptions. Persons who are visionaries. Determined souls. People who have their mind set in early years on what they want to become and how they want to lead their life. Love is another aspect that springs to mind when I think about these things. It’s not something you can force, it just happens and it takes you over. Maybe you’ve been wanting to meet someone for years and it doesn’t happen. Or you’re not trying at all, and all of a sudden the love of your life stands there in front of you. This is of course also a truth with modification. These are the extremes. You have to make yourself available to some extent, put in some energy and effort. Usually.

Naturally this is a subject of interest to me now. Love and attraction that is, haha. I do want to meet someone but at the same time I don’t want to force it. And I realize you can’t force it either. It’s not working that way. I feel like I’m going to force myself into a situation that doesn’t work. I like making new acquaintances, both male and female. Friends come easy to me these days. Both more meaningful friends and shallow ones that you only hang out with occasionally. With love though, even though it’s so simple, it’s at the same time so complicated. At least until it happens! Like I said, when it happens, it just happens.. and everything works. It clicks, so to speak. The famous click. But I realized that is not something that is a given. With my previous girlfriend I guess I got extremely lucky. It was the first girl I got to know real well in a long time, and I both fell madly in love with her personality and was extremely attracted to her. Now this is hard really. Finding someone that you both really like and that you at the same time find attractive, sexy, cute or what not. Especially once you’ve been there. Once you have a perspective on the whole thing. You tend to compare, even though you do not want to. Finding someone you like spending time with and that you like in general might not be so hard. Finding someone you love is harder. And then you also need to feel a natural attraction to that someone. I know it might sound stupid, the person you love you should also be attracted to. But is it so simple really? Love goes a long way and it opens your eyes up for that person. Love has eyes as they say, rather than love is blind. Then again, I guess the wait, the effort and the “natural selection” or whatever you’d like to call it, is all worth it. I waited more or less 25 years to find my first love/relationship and that was totally worth it. So here’s hoping I’ll find that click again and that perfect match of love and attraction. And here’s hoping you guys have it already or find it sometime in your life. Lots of love to all of you 🙂 ♥

I had a dream last night. I was in this hospital having my body checked for some kind of illness. I remember also having some sort of weird procedure done to me. It wouldn’t be a dream without weirdness, now would it? After seeing the doctor I was mindlessly wandering around the hospital. Not sure what I was searching for and not sure what I encountered. Then I came to room 103. Room 103 and you. Yet another dream where I meet you. I don’t remember you being angry, rather you had a smile on your face. We talked. I felt relieved. I wonder what you did there, why we met in a hospital. As if we both needed something mended. Anyways, I needed to get back to my room and have my checkup completed. I told you that I’d come back and talk some more and then I left. After having my checkup completed I hurried back, or at least I tried. I searched the hospital far and wide. Floor by floor. More and more desperately trying to find my way back. But room 103 was gone. You were gone. Then I woke up, drenched in sweat, a void in my stomach and that sadness that I get to feel every once in a while. Dreams…